As Sam Said, Well, I’m Back
NaNoWriMo is over. I lost.
It was a struggle, even at first. I didn’t want it to interfere with my life too much, which is laughable in a way – I want to write 50,000 words in 30 days, but I don’t want to spend the time doing it. Mostly, I didn’t want to interrupt my home life, which I enjoy far too much to spend solitarily plunking away on a laptop. Plus, my laptop doesn’t actually have Office installed, which meant using a bunch of workarounds and additional pain-in-the-ass measures that made it more difficult than it needed to be. Excuses? You bet. I’m chock full of ’em.
On the plus side, it means that I feel OK about blogging again. I felt guilty writing anything that wasn’t the novel that began to get neglected around mid-month. Worse, I started to actively hate what I was writing. I didn’t dislike it. I hated it. The characters were stupid. Their situations were dull, conversations insipid, descriptions lusterless. I felt like I was writing all the scenes that would be rightfully deleted in the movie version.
Under those circumstances, it became too difficult to continue. Silencing the inner editor is one thing: feeling like the world’s shittiest writer is a completely different hurdle. It happens to everyone. Oddly, since November ended, I feel better about the book. I feel more excited about going back to it. In retrospect, I wish I had written a completely new story for November, but when you are trying to write a sequel novel it seems to insist that it gets written before anything else. Now I understand why George RR Martin went from claiming to have his latest book nearly done 4 years ago, and hasn’t seemingly gone back to it at all. Sometimes, the sequels just aren’t fun at all.
(Parenthetically speaking [which is redundant, since I put it in parentheses and everything already], do you thing George RR Martin includes the RR just because of Tolkien? I mean, is he trying to escape the shadow of a more famous George Martin I’ve never heard of?)
I’m back here, and am going to go back to regular writing guilt-free. Additionally, I am excited to have an opportunity to write for an upcoming zombie blog, based off of the one The Zombie Research Society (of which I am a proud member, to the horror of Lady Aravan when I pull out my membership card to show people) does but aiming for a larger audience. I’ll be part of a team of several writers, and it looks like it’ll be getting started around the beginning of the year. It’s unpaid, but like I said when I asked to be part of it, I write entire novels with the expectation of not getting paid.
Finally, a brief shout-out to my friend at Clockwork Jalopy and his wonderful post about Curse. Grammar and spelling may be his personal enemies, but the man behind the posts is one of the funniest people I’ve ever had the privilege to meet. He poses (I think) as my Number One fan to a hilarious degree, but I appreciate the enthusiasm, even if it is sarcastic.
Good to be back. How are you? It’s been a while. Have a seat. Tell me what’s been happening in your life.