As Sam Said, Well, I’m Back

NaNoWriMo is over.  I lost.

It was a struggle, even at first.  I didn’t want it to interfere with my life too much, which is laughable in a way – I want to write 50,000 words in 30 days, but I don’t want to spend the time doing it.  Mostly, I didn’t want to interrupt my home life, which I enjoy far too much to spend solitarily plunking away on a laptop.  Plus, my laptop doesn’t actually have Office installed, which meant using a bunch of workarounds and additional pain-in-the-ass measures that made it more difficult than it needed to be.  Excuses?  You bet.  I’m chock full of ’em.

On the plus side, it means that I feel OK about blogging again.  I felt guilty writing anything that wasn’t the novel that began to get neglected around mid-month.  Worse, I started to actively hate what I was writing.  I didn’t dislike it.  I hated it.  The characters were stupid.  Their situations were dull, conversations insipid, descriptions lusterless.  I felt like I was writing all the scenes that would be rightfully deleted in the movie version.

Under those circumstances, it became too difficult to continue.  Silencing the inner editor is one thing: feeling like the world’s shittiest writer is a completely different hurdle.  It happens to everyone.  Oddly, since November ended, I feel better about the book.  I feel more excited about going back to it.  In retrospect, I wish I had written a completely new story for November, but when you are trying to write a sequel novel it seems to insist that it gets written before anything else.  Now I understand why George RR Martin went from claiming to have his latest book nearly done 4 years ago, and hasn’t seemingly gone back to it at all.  Sometimes, the sequels just aren’t fun at all.

(Parenthetically speaking [which is redundant, since I put it in parentheses and everything already], do you thing George RR Martin includes the RR just because of Tolkien?  I mean, is he trying to escape the shadow of a more famous George Martin I’ve never heard of?)


I’m back here, and am going to go back to regular writing guilt-free.  Additionally, I am excited to have an opportunity to write for an upcoming zombie blog, based off of the one The Zombie Research Society (of which I am a proud member, to the horror of Lady Aravan when I pull out my membership card to show people) does but aiming for a larger audience.  I’ll be part of a team of several writers, and it looks like it’ll be getting started around the beginning of the year.  It’s unpaid, but like I said when I asked to be part of it, I write entire novels with the expectation of not getting paid.

Finally, a brief shout-out to my friend at Clockwork Jalopy and his wonderful post about Curse.  Grammar and spelling may be his personal enemies, but the man behind the posts is one of the funniest people I’ve ever had the privilege to meet.  He poses (I think) as my Number One fan to a hilarious degree, but I appreciate the enthusiasm, even if it is sarcastic.

Good to be back.  How are you?  It’s been a while.  Have a seat.  Tell me what’s been happening in your life.

About Alan Edwards

Former cancer caregiver. Husband of the most magical and amazing person who ever lived.

Posted on December 3, 2010, in Kerfluffle and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. I just discovered I could click on your name and I discovered your Blog…WOOOT!!! … a Friday gift. I know how you feel, my issue is a hyper-active imagination that lacks all form of discipline. I just can’t target in on a single target because I lack the discipline, thats why I started blogging again.

    The thing with the Zombie group sounds cool, can’t wait to see what it looks like.

    • Heh. I wondered when that might happen. I don’t particularly advertise that this blog exists, but it isn’t a total secret either. I like to think of it as a side quest that others can discover on their own. Heh. Of course, the reward of finding my blog is somewhat anti-climactic, but hey, it’s the small things.

  2. Wow. Was nice to see this in my inbox. I did miss your posts. I kind of get what the NaNoWriMo is about and figured you were too busy to post anymore. It was very nice to see you back. Thanks for the heads up on the Clockwork Jalopy blog, I like it and saved the blog to my faves list. It is kind of funny, I had not really thought about you in awhile and yesterday I got a message from an author on Goodreads about a book they were sending me to review, I added it to my to read list, and your’s was right there on top…I thought….dang, I wonder how he’s doing? And here you are. My life works weird like that. I will think of someone and suddenly in some form or another, they appear.

    Working Out: I have not worked out in 4 days. I feel terrible and now am lacking motivation and just feeling bummed. You know the feeling. I WILL do Super Burn tommorrow, I have to. Seems the more I put off the inveitable workout that I did everyday for months upon months, the more I find an excuse not to do it today. I have no idea why my mind is battling my body on this.

    The Vikes….Oh the Vikes….{sigh}…Chilly was canned as expected, and Leslie is in charge, and the team is one big assed mess. On the up side I am 10-2 in one FF and 7-4-1 in the other. I am still very sad about my guys and know that next year they may be in L.A. I don’t even like California.

    Yes, I rambled on AGAIN. Man,I missed your posts, sarcasm and wit. I don’t get much of that up here in Northern MN anymore. Maybe it is the frigid weather up here, but everybody seems crabby as hell.

    • It’s funny, I haven’t worked out in 3 weeks and I am hating it. My weight isn’t changing, so I’m still right where I want to be, but I feel…flabby and weak. Not a fan of that feeling at all.

      I’ve given up on this season completely, along with the Skins, heh. I thought 8-8 was possible, but I think 6-10 at best will be the end result. Too many injuries, too many stupid distractions, too many holes to fill. People were giving me crap this weekend about McNabb – my answer to that was the O-line, running backs, and wide receivers are all worse than he is, so there isn’t much point in razzing me about him. Honestly, I am looking forward to the season just being over. I find myself just annoyed with every single team that is winning – the Patriots, the Saints, on and on. Wah wah wah.

      I really hope for every Vikings fan’s sake that they stay. I HATE when franchises move anyway, and one that’s been there so long – it’s ridiculous. Let Jacksonville move, they have no football heritage. But the land of Tarkenton, the Purple People Eaters, those brutal December slugfests against the Bears and Packers for decades? That needs to stay. As long as they build another outdoor stadium, heh.

      Good to be back, and good to hear from you!

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